37 plus 1 – induction

I rang yesterday to check for beds to see if my induction would still happen. After several phone calls it was confirmed that I would come in in the afternoon.

Both babies where monitored and I was also monitored for silent contractions. Twin 1 was not pleased with being monitored and kept kicking the heart monitor. The midwife had to keep moving the monitor around to get a reading so I ended up being on the monitor for an hour instead of 30 minutes. Both babies were fine so they were happy to proceed with a pessary which would open my cervix over the next 24 hours.

The midwife examined me and got everything ready for the pessary, however it turned out I was already 2 cm dilated so there was no need for the pessary as they could already start things off by breaking my waters. However they weren’t ready for me to be this ready and had no beds on delivery suite for me. They therefore decided I would go to the ward and wait.

At 10pm they said we were next to home upstairs and my waters would be broken in the night. Unfortunately they had some emergency admissions so at 11.30 pm my wife was asked to go home (partners aren’t allowed to sleep on the wards) and I was told I would not be getting my waters broken until tomorrow (now today).

I really hoped I’d go into labour overnight but it didn’t happen. I did have one of the worst nights sleep ever. In hindsight ear plugs and a eye mask would have been a good idea. Even with the lights off the ward is go bright. The woman in the bay opposite desided that 11.45pm was the best time to call all her family members on her phone and talk loudly to them for almost an hour.

I am really hoping they have beds in the delivery suite today or I go into labour naturally. I’m ready to meet my babies.


36 weeks 4 days

This last few days I’ve been lacking in energy. I’ve gone from having loads of energy and going around cleaning everything to finding getting up off a chair takes every ounce of energy. I have also been more grumpy and snappy.

I’ve not been sleeping very well, which I think is the problem. I’m going for a wee at least four times a night and just can’t get comfy. I also feel so heavy.

I had my midwife appointment on Thursday and she confirmed the first baby is low in the pelvis. Twin two is still stuck right up in my ribs. My hips have been sore and walking and driving is now more uncomfortable. My blood pressure was in normal range but on the high side of normal so she’s told me to ring if I feel unwell. Otherwise she was happy with everything.

So Tuesday is still the planned induction day if the hospital has beds. I have to call at around 6.30am to confirm. I keep hoping I’ll start in labour before then but I’m running out of days.

I have also had to be a bit secretive about the induction day as my wife’s mother has said she will turn up at the hospital as soon as I go into labour. We’ve made it clear she won’t be let in and that only the two of us will be at the birth but she doesn’t listen. I’ve found this hard as it’s meant I’ve not been able to tell many people in case it gets back to her and she turns up and causes problems. It also adds to stress that I don’t need. She’s very excited and her hearts in the right place, but she wants to know everything. In my tired state I have no patience.

Families can be very hard and everyone has their own opinions on everything pregnancy related. Thankfully my family are far more laid back.

36 weeks 1 day

I have made it to 36 weeks. My last growth scan was yesterday and both babies are growing well. They have estimated twin one as weighing 6 lb 4 and twin 2 as 5 lb 10. Twin 2 however was hard to measure as it was all bunched up.

Twin 1 is still head down and low down ready to engage however not down in my pelvis yet. Twin two is now sideways in my rips, with its feet by its face.

My induction is still booked in for next Tuesday however I have to ring before coming in to make sure they have room for me. If not then it will be put off to the following day.

I’m feeling ready to give birth now. I’m so heavy and uncomfortable and my back hurts a lot. I’m still able to drive and I’m going for little walks every day. My house has been cleaned top to bottom and I have made lots of healthy meals for the freezer. I’ve also made sure the cupboards are full so we don’t have to worry about shopping in the first few weeks.

I can’t wait to meet them both. By the end of next week they should be here.

34 weeks and 2 days

My last clinic appointment with the consultant has a week ago last Monday. I’ve seen a different doctor most times I’ve been. The lady I saw was happy with my growth scan and happy I could try to have the babies normally, as twin 1 is head down. Twin 2 is breach but they will try and turn twin 2 when number one is born or failing that I may be able to give birth to number 2 breach. Last resort will be a c section.

My blood pressure was normal but I did have a little sugar in my wee. She wasn’t to bothered about this. I was then told if the babies aren’t here by 17th April I will be induced. I am to turn up at 8am on 17th. I have my last scan on 10th April and they will confirm any details then.

I finished work last Friday, which I was more than ready for. I’m technically on leave this week and maternity leave starts next week.

I had to put extra hours in to get everything done and my diary was full of meeting after meeting. Thankfully my manager let me take some time owing, so it means I have a bit more leave to carry forward for when my maternity leave ends. No more work now until November. Yay.

I have found I’ve been busy every day this week, as everyone wants to see me before the babies arrive. Also as it’s half term a lot of my friends with children are off work so want to meet up. So I’m still worn out but it’s a different kind of worn out to work worn out.

I’ve put time aside for relaxing next week. My friend is doing a raki session with me and I’ve booked in a pregnancy massage. I can’t wait.

My midwife saw me this morning and everything is looking good. No sugar in my wee this time. Both babies heartbeats are sounding good. All my bloods are good. My iron levels are all good. I have just one more midwife appointment left in two weeks time (unless babies don’t wait that long).

Health wise I’m doing well. I’m tired and breathless but otherwise still able to get around OK. I do find when I go shopping everything I want seems to be on the bottom shelf, which I can get down to but getting back up is only achieved by holding on to something and grunting.

Less than three weeks left until these babies get here. I can’t wait to meet them.

32 weeks 4 days

My tummy is feeling very heavy now. Breathing is also becoming harder and I walk more like a penguin these days. Thankfully I have only a week left at work. I’m exhausted by the end of the day and I am really ready to finish now.

We had a growth scan last Monday and both twins are growing well. Their estimated weights are now 4lb 2 and 3lb 14 so I’m carrying over 8lb of babies around, which explains the tiredness and difficultly breathing.

Both babies are wiggling around a lot and respond when me and my wife talk to them. It still feels odd they will be born in less than five weeks and we will finally be parents.

We attended an antenatal breastfeeding class this week. It was all free and run by volunteers. They run support groups for new mums where you can get advice and socialise so we are going to go along when the twins arrive. They were able to give information on breast feeding twins which helped me get my head round how it would work.

I’ve had increased back pain and more braxton hicks this week so it feels like the are getting themselves ready. I’m hoping they don’t come to soon and at least wait until I finish work next week.

One year on from miscarriage

It was a year ago today that I was called by my ivf clinic to say my hgc levels had fallen and I would start miscarrying the pregnancy I had so longed for.

It had taken two fresh ivf cycles and four frozen transfers to finally get that positive pregnancy test. I went from the happiest I’d ever been to the saddest. It was devastating and I never thought I’d recover. People told me I should be grateful it was early (6 weeks), but I already saw my pregnancy as a baby. I already felt a bond and completely fell in love with my baby from the moment I knew it was there.

We laid flowers at the reservoir near our house, as we’d walked there the day before I found out I was pregnant. It seemed like the right place and we needed somewhere to go and remember. We still go there and take flowers and spend time just thinking of the baby.

A year on I am sat here with two wiggly babies growing in my belly. Our last two frozen embryos are now growing nicely in my tummy and I’ve made it to 32 weeks. It’s hard to believe I’m here and this is real. I never thought I’d get here and I’d pretty much given up hope.

I will always remember my first pregnancy. It will always be my baby and have a special place in my heart. I’ll make sure I tell our children about their brother or sister who never got to be with us.

30 weeks 4 days

There not too much to report. Things seem to be going well.

I’ve had my home visit from the health visitor and have finished all our antenatal classes.

We’ve booked in for a breastfeeding support class for pregnancy on 12th March. It’s free and offers advice and support, which you can access after the baby is born.

We’ve brought or been given pretty much everything we need. I suppose there has to be one advantage to taking so long to get pregnant. Everyone else has already done it and has lots of hand me downs.

I’m feeling pretty good at the moment. I’m tired, especially after work and I’m up at least three times a night to have a wee. There’s only 3 weeks left at work then about another 3 and a half weeks before they induce me, if the twins can wait that long. I’m hoping that they give me a few days at home to rest before they arrive.

28 weeks today

So I’m 28 weeks pregnant. Still can’t quite believe it.

I had another growth scan yesterday. Both twins are growing nicely and now weigh 2lb 5 and 2 lb 6. They are right on track. My next growth scan is in 4 weeks.

I also had my second antenatal class. We had to pay for our antenatal classes as our trust doesn’t provide them. It cost £70 for three classes, however we did get a few free bottles, nappies and some nappy rash cream. You also get tea and biscuits so it’s not to bad. The class is a bit basic and a lot of stuff I knew already but I suppose they have to cater for everyone.

Our nursery is now almost finished. The cots have been put together and everything is decorated. Just need a baby monitor and a lamp. I’ve sorted a lot of our old stuff to put on ebay to clear space for baby stuff.

I’ve got just 6 weeks left at work. I can’t believe how quickly things are going. My to do list is huge so I need to crack on and get on top of stuff in case I go into labour early. In ten weeks if they aren’t here I’ll be induced.

26 weeks 5 days

Both babies are growing nicely. I had a growth scan just over a week ago and they are right in the middle of their centile graph. I however seem to have stopped gaining weight and have stayed the same weight for the last three weeks. However as they are growing well this doesn’t seem to be an issue. My midwife has told me to eat an extra 350 calories a day instead of the normal recommended 200 in pregnancy, as I’m pregnant with twins. On the whole I’m managing this.

My tummy feels so full after I eat I have to eat smaller meals more often. There are also days where its harder to breathe. It seems to depend on how the babies are positioned.

Otherwise all is still going well. I’m able to still be relatively active and feel pretty good, although tired.

Thankfully my feet itching has eased off however this has been replaced by thrush. It seems I’m destined to itch one way or another.

We have sorted most of the nursery. We just need to pick up the cots, which will be ready to collect in two weeks time. I’ve also started washing all the baby clothes people have given us. All my friends seem to have had girls lately so I have two drawers of second hand girl clothes and half a drawer of boys stuff. We’ve decided we are probably having boys and they’ll have nothing to wear.

We also had a 4d scan last week. It was surreal to see them both. They made sure we didn’t see anything that would give the gender away. Our friends and family are torn between boy and girl and two boys. I’m also torn and can’t make my mind up. I think it’s hard to see from faces alone. I’m glad as I am looking forward to the surprise.

My hospital bags are all packed just in case they come early. I’m hoping they don’t. My plan is to work to 34 weeks, but we will see how that goes.

24 weeks and 2 days

Last Thursday evening I came home from work and had sore itchy feet. I soaked them in some water and thankfully they felt better. The next day I was on a course all day. I was sat on a horrible plastic chair and when I got home my back and hip hurt and my feet where hot swollen and itchy.

Saturday I felt better and the itching stopped so I put it down to swelling or an allergy. Sunday however the itching came back really badly and kept me awake. Obviously I googled it and saw itching feet and hands can be a sign of liver problems. So onMonday I called the community midwife office and they advised me to go to the gp and get a blood test.

I also spoke to my sister who is a midwife and she said it’s important to have a blood test, however itching can be because of other things. She had really itchy hands in pregnancy and her tests were normal.

The gp surgery managed to get me in Monday afternoon which was quick. I saw a locum doctor and he was really nice. He confirmed that I needed a blood test and ordered me one however, he could not do it and I had to see a nurse the next day. He did check my blood pressure and wee which were both normal. He did say itching in pregnancy is common.

My results came back today, as normal, so my liver is fine. My feet still itch but at least it is not anything serious.

Sleeping is getting hard. If I’m not itching, I’m getting up for a wee or suffering from cramp. I can’t get comfy however I position my pillow. The babies also like to have a party as soon as I lay down. I love feeling them, but night time seems to be there favourite time for moving. I suppose I need to get used to not sleeping for when they arrive.